Thursday, June 22, 2017

7 years later: Cute and Confident with no makeup


Yesterday I threw on some eyeliner, mascara, blush, and lipstick and I curled my hair. I had a video interview in support of why I like working for my current employer so I dressed up a bit, wearing a polkadot dress and heels as well. I felt good about myself and how I looked yesterday.

Today is my ‘dress-down’ day where I put virtually no effort into my appearance. I’m straight up casual with a t-shirt and leggings, ballet flats, no makeup and I didn’t even brush my hair. You could call it that ‘straight out of bed’ look because well…it is. 

Taking a selfie today I’m surprised that I think I look cute. How is that even possible? 

I’m in the 7th year of my transition so it’s definitely been a long time coming but I don't think I was ever sure that I’d get to a place where I’d not only feel like I look female without all that effort…..but also still look cute. 

I think 2017 has set me on this path from the beginning. At the end of 2016, I finally had FFS and while that recovery has been difficult with some interesting unexpected results, it also set me on this path of needing less effort in my appearance. 

It began with eyelash extensions (which would later cause a lot of issues ironically) and then transitioned into micro bladed eyebrows as well. For the first few months of 2017 I was over-delighted to not wear any makeup and still have gorgeous eyelashes and filled in eyebrows. My girlfriends even admitted to being jealous and while that’s not what I’m going for, it’s always interesting when cis-girls are jealous of me; because it’s always been the opposite for most of my life. 

And then a horrible thing happened. My eyelashes got infected. It’s called “Blepharitis" or "any kind of inflammation of the eyelids/lash line". It can be caused by infections or allergy. I had been getting fills for the eyelash extensions for months so I’m still unsure about the actual cause but the effect ended up being 3-4 weeks of virtually no makeup or lashes or anything. I saw various doctors and finally after using steroid eyedrops, was able to contain the swelling and inflammation. The end result was not wearing makeup for a whole month. 

It’s only been a couple weeks since I recovered from that and I’ve experimented with eyeliner, eyeshadow, and even strip false lashes and have noticed my eyes are much more sensitive to just about anything now. It’s not unbearable but they definitely seem to get red and slightly inflamed sometimes. 

So despite throwing some eyeliner on once a week and maybe a full face of makeup for a photoshoot here and there, most days, I end up like today with virtually nothing on my face to enhance,  contour, or cover up.

And surprisingly I feel just as confident and cute.

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